more ups than downs..

It's been a good week. A good month. A good first half of the year even..
Definitely as the title suggests, more ups than downs. I take heart from it. =)
My budding relationship can no longer be considered budding.
There's been a few speedbumps but I see wide open roads ahead.

So onwards we go to the never-ending horizon..

*end ramble*

quotes

"A quarrel between friends, when made up, adds a new tie to friendship."
Saint Francis de Sales

"Friendships begun in this world will be taken up again, never to be broken off."
Saint Francis de Sales

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness, nothing so gentle as real strength."
Saint Francis de Sales

"The test of courage comes when we are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority."
Ralph W. Sockman

Life Lesson

Learn from India 's great Guru. Maharishi Vatsyayan who stated in his
Magnum Opus "Kamasutra" that ....

*Sex is.......


*"Duty", if done with your Wife,

*"Art", if done with your Lover,

*"Education", if done with a Virgin,

*"Business", if done with a Prostitute,

*"Social Work", if done with a Divorcee,

*"Charity", if done with a Widow,

*"Sacrifice", if done with your own Hand.

never quite answered..

I am what you need,
what you want.

But am I who you love,
who you desire?

this is nice.. isn't it?

http://forums.leasticoulddo.com/index.php?showtopic=31653

it's the simple things in life

still wrong market..

this weekend, it was my cousin's wedding (yes another one, I have many).
I was one of the 'heng tai' which is sort of a custom where we travel to the bride's home to bring her back to the groom's home.

so on the flip side of the 'heng tai' business would be the female counterparts. 'ji mui'
so there were 3.
apparently one took a shine to me..
the '21 yo' one
sigh..

how do i know this? bride told me so and I did have to send the 21 yo home.. so.. yea..
sigh

what am i projecting here i wonder?

not quite insomnia...

This week have been the shittiest in terms of sleep in probably the past 10-15 years.
I'd go to bed at 12 or round about 12 give or take half an hour and then I'll wake up in the middle of the night. 3 am, 4 am, 5 am, etc..

I have no idea what it is that's been bothering me. But I'm tired. I'm not getting my requisite number of hours. It's almost as bad as when I slept at later hours. Kind of defeats the purpose.
Sigh.

Last time that I had something like this was when I was still in Melbourne before I met the committee. I'd have nightmares and sleeplessness and even went to see a doctor about it and got some sleeping pills. The effects only lasted some 3-4 hours before I'd be awake again. Then I knew what it was that was bothering me.

But what is it now?



"Whenever I'm weary,
From the battles that rage in my head,
You made sense of madness,
When my sanity hangs by a thread"

Now and Forever - Richard Marx

nice lyrics

There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Now my friends are dead and gone.

Here they talked of revolution.
Here it was they lit the flame.
Here they sang about `tomorrow'
And tomorrow never came.

From the table in the corner
They could see a world reborn
And they rose with voices ringing
I can hear them now!
The very words that they had sung
Became their last communion
On the lonely barricade at dawn.

Oh my friends, my friends forgive me

That I live and you are gone.
There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.

Phantom faces at the window.
Phantom shadows on the floor.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will meet no more.

Oh my friends, my friends, don't ask me
What your sacrifice was for
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will sing no more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IA36liLghk

of the things that you find online..

of gems and otherwise.

this is cruel.. though maybe a lesson to be learnt here

this is just beautiful. I hope I never lose sight of the important things

Things you never knew. Check out #42

ugh..

I still don't know what I'm doing.
Supposed to have picked a direction but I'm still circling aimlessly..

failed marketing segmentation & positioning??

(at a wedding dinner)

B: Hey, how come you're here alone? Where's your gf?
Me: You're also here alone.. Where's your gf? Which one are you referring to?
B: The last one I saw? The 18yo.
Me: 18yo? Are you sure you have the right person?
B: Yea.. you brought her during CNY what.
Me: How long ago was this?
B: Last year or the year before.. Neh.. the short short cute cute one?
Me: That should be W. She's not 18.... She's older than us.
B: Sure or not? The short and cute one wor..
Me: Should be her. And it wasn't CNY, it was your niece's full moon.
B: Oh yeah.. But she looks no more than 21.
Me: ......

(at a local pub)

J: Hey do you remember my cousin, the one that you and K were asking if she's legal yet? She thinks you're cute.
Me: Oh?
J: Yeala, she texted me after the dinner last week and said "Oh it was a great dinner and all that" and then she said "The guy who looks like SL ah yee's ex is cute" to which I said," The one who looks like a gorilla?"
"If you wanna call him that, yea"
"But he's 10 years older than you"
"I'm just saying he's cute"
J: So yea! She just turned 18 last week. So how? Can ar?
Me: ... She's 18! And I'm 12 years older..
J: You're 30 this year?
Me: Yes...

(cue peals of laughter)

*wail*

taking the procedure @ Lacuna Inc.

Sometimes during the ebb, I imagine myself as the character, Joel Barish and I'd go visit Lacuna Inc. and be done with the memories and the person

But that'd be cowardly and I want to be anything but.
Nothing's changed. My feelings haven't changed.

But sometimes, just sometimes,
I just want to take that procedure and be over it and never meet her again.

But like most of my thoughts, it's merely a flight of fancy

been watching too much tv..

so unlike me at all but this is a holiday and generally I don't waste it but I've been feeling lazy given the length of time that I have to myself.

so. .
yay for me

how different life has become
10 years ago, we're discussing which Uni to go to, which girl/guy broke our heart
5 years ago, the shit jobs that we're in..
last week, so when are you getting married? did you hear so and so are getting married?

how quickly time passes.. and how different things are now.

we grew up.