still wrong market..

this weekend, it was my cousin's wedding (yes another one, I have many).
I was one of the 'heng tai' which is sort of a custom where we travel to the bride's home to bring her back to the groom's home.

so on the flip side of the 'heng tai' business would be the female counterparts. 'ji mui'
so there were 3.
apparently one took a shine to me..
the '21 yo' one
sigh..

how do i know this? bride told me so and I did have to send the 21 yo home.. so.. yea..
sigh

what am i projecting here i wonder?

putz.

"I have been miserable for so long that I've forgotten how is it like to be happy"

anon. 2009

ryan sohmer ftw

http://forums.leasticoulddo.com/index.php?showtopic=31585

" Where is it written that Mondays must suck? And where is the follow up passage, where it states Mondays must suck super hard?

As I sit here in the office, in a giant puddle of water half a foot deep, this is what I’m thinking of. As the maintenance and cleaning staff do their best to both clean the office and discover where exactly the water keeps coming from, I wonder how many times the Blind Ferret head office needs to be flooded before we’re legally zoned as a body of water.

As I look down, at the fish nibbling at my feet, I’m forced to ask myself: Is life better, down where it’s wetter?

- Because I can. "

I find this absolutely hilarious.. I don't know about you but I think that this guy is a gem.
lol.

not quite insomnia...

This week have been the shittiest in terms of sleep in probably the past 10-15 years.
I'd go to bed at 12 or round about 12 give or take half an hour and then I'll wake up in the middle of the night. 3 am, 4 am, 5 am, etc..

I have no idea what it is that's been bothering me. But I'm tired. I'm not getting my requisite number of hours. It's almost as bad as when I slept at later hours. Kind of defeats the purpose.
Sigh.

Last time that I had something like this was when I was still in Melbourne before I met the committee. I'd have nightmares and sleeplessness and even went to see a doctor about it and got some sleeping pills. The effects only lasted some 3-4 hours before I'd be awake again. Then I knew what it was that was bothering me.

But what is it now?



"Whenever I'm weary,
From the battles that rage in my head,
You made sense of madness,
When my sanity hangs by a thread"

Now and Forever - Richard Marx

nice lyrics

There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Now my friends are dead and gone.

Here they talked of revolution.
Here it was they lit the flame.
Here they sang about `tomorrow'
And tomorrow never came.

From the table in the corner
They could see a world reborn
And they rose with voices ringing
I can hear them now!
The very words that they had sung
Became their last communion
On the lonely barricade at dawn.

Oh my friends, my friends forgive me

That I live and you are gone.
There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.

Phantom faces at the window.
Phantom shadows on the floor.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will meet no more.

Oh my friends, my friends, don't ask me
What your sacrifice was for
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will sing no more.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3IA36liLghk

so it is true..

familiarity does breed contempt.

of the things that you find online..

of gems and otherwise.

this is cruel.. though maybe a lesson to be learnt here

this is just beautiful. I hope I never lose sight of the important things

Things you never knew. Check out #42

ugh..

I still don't know what I'm doing.
Supposed to have picked a direction but I'm still circling aimlessly..

failed marketing segmentation & positioning??

(at a wedding dinner)

B: Hey, how come you're here alone? Where's your gf?
Me: You're also here alone.. Where's your gf? Which one are you referring to?
B: The last one I saw? The 18yo.
Me: 18yo? Are you sure you have the right person?
B: Yea.. you brought her during CNY what.
Me: How long ago was this?
B: Last year or the year before.. Neh.. the short short cute cute one?
Me: That should be W. She's not 18.... She's older than us.
B: Sure or not? The short and cute one wor..
Me: Should be her. And it wasn't CNY, it was your niece's full moon.
B: Oh yeah.. But she looks no more than 21.
Me: ......

(at a local pub)

J: Hey do you remember my cousin, the one that you and K were asking if she's legal yet? She thinks you're cute.
Me: Oh?
J: Yeala, she texted me after the dinner last week and said "Oh it was a great dinner and all that" and then she said "The guy who looks like SL ah yee's ex is cute" to which I said," The one who looks like a gorilla?"
"If you wanna call him that, yea"
"But he's 10 years older than you"
"I'm just saying he's cute"
J: So yea! She just turned 18 last week. So how? Can ar?
Me: ... She's 18! And I'm 12 years older..
J: You're 30 this year?
Me: Yes...

(cue peals of laughter)

*wail*

idiocy knows no bounds

what the fuck am i doing?

karma?

If karma was efficient in dealing out retributions and rewards, the world would be a lot better place. But it isn't.
So don't put too much stock in it and just be the best person that you can be.
Not because you don't want retribution but because you want to be the best person that you can be.

macross frontier

When I was in love with God
I never thought we'd part like this.
Goodbye, Goodbye, as many times as it takes
I heartlessly tell myself
Waving goodbye is kindness, isn't it?
I wish I had strength now.

Meeting you, the stars shone, I was born.
As long as I love. As Long as 'I' exist
Don't let me go ever again.
Hold me tight.
"You're not alone", the planet wants you to whisper

Anime translated song

Who are you gonna kiss?
My pure heart is gonna race around the stars
With wimps and crybabies in tow
I think I'm gonna go again

More than loving, more than demanding
I'm frustrated that doubting is so much easier for me

It hurts
such as "we're friends, but i don't love you"
or "i'll protect you, but i can be by your side"
bitter mutual incompatibility

Right this second, touch me
if this is fate, let it connect

Who are you gonna kiss?
Me? Or Maybe that other girl?
instead of heart-wrenching words
just irresponsibly embrace the edge

taking the procedure @ Lacuna Inc.

Sometimes during the ebb, I imagine myself as the character, Joel Barish and I'd go visit Lacuna Inc. and be done with the memories and the person

But that'd be cowardly and I want to be anything but.
Nothing's changed. My feelings haven't changed.

But sometimes, just sometimes,
I just want to take that procedure and be over it and never meet her again.

But like most of my thoughts, it's merely a flight of fancy

seriously..

Do things because you think it's the right one to do for you.

Don't do it because you think it's the right thing to do for me.

I and I alone decide what is right by me.

running on empty..

It's funny how emotional extremes gives you an alternative source of energy.
I went to bed at 4.
fell asleep at 4.30.
woke up every roughly half an hour.
then probably managed to sleep for a time period longer than half an hour at 7..

THEN the alarm rings at 9.30.
And here I am at 9.35. Not feeling sleepy at all.
And it's fucking raining..
There goes my sunday plans.

Abso-fucking-lutely perfect.

You'd think that it's obvious by now..

I AM an idiot

This monday I like

A good start to the week..
still tongue-tied
but very happy nonetheless =)
I can't believe that I still can't stop smiling like some sort of retarded monkey.

but i shouldn't delay the inevitable..
enough people have heard me moan and gripe about it.

for a person who says carpe diem, I don't do it nearly often enough.
I guess it's always easier to say what you'd like to do instead of doing what you ought to do.
But I'm still working up the courage

bleh

on the radio sometime this week

I was driving to work one morning and I heard this on the radio

"This XXX radio station and we're inviting you to tell us what is the worst love songs that you have ever dedicated or been dedicated. We just heard "Hate that I love you" by Rihanna featuring Ne-yo. We just had a caller calling telling us that she cried when she heard that song as she'd just broken up with her bf recently and it really speaks to her. We're sorry to hear about the break-up, XXX, and we hope you'll feel better soon."

"Coming up next, Pink with "Please don't leave me."

Is it just me or would other people find it funny too? If you don't, it's not important.. just simply only.

when context and time and place matters

"rest assured
that u dont look anywhere near happy
that is a compliment"

^_-